Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Feeling Nostalgic
Tonight after putting Nathan to bed, I suddenly realized that tomorrow is our last day as just the two of us. I'm very excited to not be pregnant anymore and so anxious to hold Zach in my arms, but I'm feeling a little sad about losing time with Nathan. I know that is there is enough love here for two boys, but for a second I started to wonder how I can possibly love Zachary as much as I love Nathan. I'm going to try to make tomorrow a very special day for Nathan. Maybe those of you with multiple children can share your experiences with adding number two.
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I was just thinking that same thing tonight after I left your house. I didn't get the countdown till Allison was born, so I just made every moment count. That is probably why I was at the zoo twice and EP once the week she was born. You are an amazing woman and a great mommy. You'll be surprised at how naturally you go from one to two. I'm sure there will be bumps. How many of them have you been there for me? But moms are a different breed. The first moment they hold their baby, their heart grows like the Grinch's. They manage to bend and find time to do what really matters in every day. And just as Nathan surprises you with his abilities on a daily basis, you will surprise yourself. I know you will.
This is the only thing about having two that came naturally for me- it was the thing I was most worried about before J came. You don't even think about it. You just know that they are both supposed to be part of your family. I think too, that there was something about seeing the two of them together and having an idea of the kind of bond they would someday have and knowing how much they would add to one another's lives. And what the two of them together will add to yours.
I felt the same way too esp since we were having another boy but I don't know what it is but you just love them the same!! it is pretty amazing that we have 2 little boys and that jarrett is such a big helper and he loves jackson so much. good luck and take lots of pictures tomorrow!!!
Well, I haven't made it there yet, so I don't have any advice, but I know you and I know you will do great. Have a WONDERFUL day tomorrow. : )
I believe it was you who recently said something very wise along the lines of that the things in life that are most worthwhile are the things we most fret over and struggle with. As with Nathan, you will love Zachary more than you ever thought it was possible to love another human being. It won't take away from Nathan, but just add to your love for him and to the depth of who YOU are as a person! Thank the Lord that, for one thing, love is not finite, and that it grows and expands and changes as we grow and change and as our lives and families grow and change, and, for another thing, that He always seems to provide just what we need at just the right time to help us grow and change in ways we never could have dreamed! And what a beautiful thing it will be for Nathan to also have the opportunity to love another human being in a whole new way: to be the big brother and to teach Zachary all he knows (for better or worse :-)) and to learn in the very special way that siblings do how important other human beings are, that we must treat others with love and kindness, and that it's just not all about "me", and couldn't the world use more of that?! He'll get to look out for Zach, play and share with him, and even fight with him and learn from that, too! As a mother of TWO precious boys, you will thoroughly enjoy and rise to the challenge of teaching those priceless lessons that you wouldn't otherwise have had the opportunity to in quite the same way. And just like everything else, Julie, you'll have good days, bad days, great days, horrible days, and amazing days, and you'll continue to be the TREMENDOUS mommy, wife, and friend that you are today and that I feel unbelievably blessed to know. And you'll continue to grow in love and be amazed by both of your children and your love for them.
Julie, it's hard to add anything to everything that's been said. My biggest worry when I had Soph was about Avery too - he was already six & half by then. It was a huge change, but it was also one of the easiest. It's true, it's like everything just grows - you suddenly have two little people that you love more then anything in world, that make you smile & laugh & cuddle & kiss & have fun with & want to teach & love & nurture forever. Nothing diminishes, you just get bigger somehow. It's hard for me to even remember not having two, it's like they were always there in my heart just waiting to be born & complete my life. You will always be an extraordinary mom to both your boys! You'll be amazed by both yourself & Nate, trust me. There's almost nothing sweeter then watching your kids together sometimes, watching when Nate is being a helper & when Zach starts calling for his brother (cause he'll adore him!!) Much love to you, I'll be thinking of you & Eric & Nate & little Zach all day. tomorrow.
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